Saddam Hussein is Dead

Saddam Hussein has dropped through the floor and hung by the neck until dead. And the feeling in the pit of my stomach is one I recognize and one I don't like. I've had it before, and something bad always happens.

On October 11, 1996 I had this feeling and couldn't shake it. I came home from work and tried all manner of distractions, to no avail. I tried to take a nap and I had a horribly vivid dream. I saw my '68 Cougar slamming into a specific pole on a specific corner that I passed every day on my way to and from work. I saw the steering wheel collapse and the steering column impale my chest, and I saw myself die. Like I said, it was vivid. I sat bolt upright in a cold sweat, and went to take a shower.

I had just stripped down and was ready to step into the shower when the phone rang. It was a policeman telling me that my youngest daughter had been struck by a car as she broke every rule we had stressed to her. She had attempted to cross Highway 99 to get to the convenience store on the other side and bubble gum.

I pulled on my clothes and stepped into my Birkenstocks and flew out the back door to the intersection the policeman told me they were. They were a block to the north, and I literally ran out of my shoes. Someone fetched them for me, apparently, because someone handed them to me before the ambulance left, and I recall first telling the ambulance driver to go to the hospital where I was employed; then having him turn around and go to another facility because if I lost it I didn't want my co-workers to see me flip out.

As it turns out I didn't flip out. In fact, when the nurse couldn't set the IV, I did it. I hadn't even thought about what I would say to my husband, who was (I thought) out of the country. Then I looked up, and there he stood, in the trauma room, with a look on his face I haven't seen since he had to go with the detail to tell a pregnant wife of an Airman in his command that her husband had been killed in a car accident. He had finagled two weeks leave and come home to be with the child in the trauma bay on her ninth birthday, a mere eight days hence.

And that is when I lost it.

We took her home a few hours later. Her front tooth had been reimplanted, and she had stitches in a couple of places, and one of them on her forhead was very nasty. There was a spot under her bangs, barely visible now, that looked like hamburger. We would spend the next year going to endodontists and orthodontists and plastic surgeons. (Her father would soon leave again and be gone for another six months, but I didn't have to face that alone. Apparently I could have, but I am grateful I didn't have to.)

As we talked on the way home, I told him about the feeling in the pit of my stomach and he told me to take a piece of paper out of his pocket. He had the same feeling and wrote me a final love-letter on the plane, he was convinced it was going to crash.

Tonight we have that same feeling, and we hope we are wrong.

We don't want to see the country finish imploding, we don't want to see the Green Zone over run and we don't want to see mass casualties.

I hope like hell my gut is wrong.

When all else fails...hang the dictator

The Coalition Provisional Authority has transfered custody of Saddam Hussein to the Iraqi government for dispensation of his imposed sentence.

Iraqi law mandates that the sentence be carried out within thirty days of the denial of appeal. The appeal was denied just a few days ago, and yesterday the Iraqi's asked for the transfer of the prisoner.

The next few days will be tense. Unless he has already been hanged. If that's the case, look for the whole country to explode. And hope that neighboring Sunni populations don't get in on the fun...